How was your old you?

 Was meant to be writing and getting work done but instead, I was virtual stalking someone because they intrigued me.... I went through their ( the victim of my stalking? ) blog and saw how they changed over the years and thought, " how was I 2 years ago?"

Was I more naive, happy, tolerating, you know an unrefined version of my present self... and from what I read it seems like the me from 2 years ago was more strict and angry.

 I'm not as angry as I was in 2018 because honestly, I no get energy for too much stress. I love the fact that 2018 me isn't such a stark contrast from my present self that I'll be wondering " wtf did I ever think that way " In fact, I still carry most of her opinions and I hope I haven't become worse or anything like that. Lemme just start using age abeg. 

16 year old me was sensible enough for 18 years old me to understand. I know I'll make more mistakes and experience a lot more so I can't wait to see what I'll leave behind for the person I'm becoming. 



I know I could just look at my old tweets but stresssssssss. I hope I post here regularly, at least regularly enough that I can give future me some laughs because I am funny like deh


Hopefully, my life is better then because I'm in a much better place than I was 2 years ago! How about you? Where were you 2 years ago? Are you proud of the you of 2 years ago? Was he/she/they/fae/moo/froggie a better person? You can answer in the comment sekstun

Till next time, piss out. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Is hyper self consciousness really just unhealthy narcissism?

Image
  I can't afford therapy, so I'm in the process of deconstructing myself just so I can heal or, at least, heal enough to enjoy life and myself a little more.  One nasty habit I've struggled with for the longest is my self-consciousness. Maybe it's because I was a late bloomer, or it's the endless mix of taunts and compliments I've received, but I'm constantly thinking of what other people are thinking or think about me.  Thinking because I assume it's a constant act. Think - what representation of me exists in their minds?  Constantly thinking. of what. other people. are thinking. about me. Inserting myself in other people's minds and ruminating over what that image of me could be there. Isn't that insane? It's quite narcissistic. The gall to think that strangers, with their own problems, lives, and realities, have enough time to constantly be bothered with me. Is narcissism extreme? A bit, but Google dictionary says Narcissism is "exces...
Read more

Useless

Image
 I feel more useless than condoms in a brothel. Now, now, I know I'm not ( possibly), but it never really matters does it?? You're trying your best to excel at something, but it never seems to work out. You know you're deserving of better things but it seems like sky daddy wants you to scramble a little more.  You've PRAYED, MANIFESTED, done everything short of sacrificing a virgin goat but stiiiiilllllll. Life just keeps fucking you with all sorts of diseases. When will it get better? When does it tho? You have 2 good days then the 5 remaining days are just a joke. I know I'm a joke but God, abeg nau. Razzpods, Sapa, intellectual decline etc.  People killing their loved ones isn't even entertaining me again, smh. But, we meuve. Things will get better ( AMEN)
Read more

It’s okay to be a bad belle, sometimes.

Image
 Who says you have to be happy for someone's success? I don't know if I'll say it's the society that has conditioned us, but it almost seems like we're forced to be happy for someone else. But come on, we're human. Jealousy & envy is to be expected. I'm sure most, if not ALL, of us have seen someone celebrating something and thought, "why can't that be me? "It's perfectly normal, and you shouldn't feel bad for wanting what someone else has. Or thinking it should be you instead. It's giving hater but boo fucking hoo.  On a side note, this isn't for chronic haters oh. If you go about hating on people's success, that's on you tbh.  This is for my fellow people who sometimes feel less or like god's worst offspring when they see how well it's going for other people. I can't say it's going to get better, but you could make it better for yourself. I'm talking s...n...i.... Lmao, I'm joking! But fr, l...
Read more