I want to change
Wow, it's been five long years since I posted here, and is there anything I've ever successfully completed besides my degree? I was a teen when I made most of my posts, and here I am, 23, overwhelmed by more societal and mental pressure than past Mes. Crushed under the weight of the past and future while living in neither. You know, life IS simple, but my life is very hard because I choose to suffer. I've chosen to cultivate a mind that is a revolving door of voices and images of embarrassing past events and devastating future events that are yet to happen. Previously, I'd have never admitted this, but after reading Courage to be Disliked by Fumitake Koga and Ichiro Kishimi, I had an epiphany. Why really do I run away from the beautiful present? Why have I chosen to blame past people, events, and Mes. Here's a quote that really stood out to me: " We are not determined by our experiences but the meaning we give them is self-determining... We determine our liv...