my ranting space

The name of our book for today is Gothikana. I read this earlier in the year and I couldn't put it down. One thing that got me hooked was the descriptions, this author was precise as fuck. I felt like I was living in the book and ( perhaps ) enjoying the good stuff the MC was. I don't want to say too much about the book, but if you like good mysteries, twists and brooding ( enigmatic) males, you'd love this. The main girl-  weird, unconventional, and hears voices. Her background is also dark which I just love. And she wasn't a helpless, dumb bish that relied on the male so I loved that. Lemme just come clean, what made me really dig the book was the sexual tension and roles. Their relationship was forbidden ( student-teacher) so there was a lot of sneaking around, and excitement. The foreplay was well-paced too, her pant didn't magically open after seeing the guy. This is a dark and sexual novel and if you want roses, and happiness please just move away.  But if you...

 I feel more useless than condoms in a brothel. Now, now, I know I'm not ( possibly), but it never really matters does it?? You're trying your best to excel at something, but it never seems to work out. You know you're deserving of better things but it seems like sky daddy wants you to scramble a little more.  You've PRAYED, MANIFESTED, done everything short of sacrificing a virgin goat but stiiiiilllllll. Life just keeps fucking you with all sorts of diseases. When will it get better? When does it tho? You have 2 good days then the 5 remaining days are just a joke. I know I'm a joke but God, abeg nau. Razzpods, Sapa, intellectual decline etc.  People killing their loved ones isn't even entertaining me again, smh. But, we meuve. Things will get better ( AMEN)